Erstwhile Arsenal defender Emmanuel Eboue has explained how difficult it was for him to cope with the one-year suspension from football slammed on him by the World football governing body (FIFA).
The versatile defender admitted that it got to a stage that he was thinking of committing suicide claiming that was the best option that came to his mind when he was troubled.
Eboue is serving a one year suspension from football following a dispute with an agent over unpaid debt which FIFA found him guilty.
The 33-year-old's contract at Sunderland was cancelled by FIFA after the agent named Sebastien Boisseau claimed that the Ivorian was owing him the sum of £1 million which was part of his deal to Galatasaray from Premier League side Arsenal in 2011.
''Everyday, I feel like staying on the bed because many people will be asking me if I have retired from football, and I would have to be explaining myself which was not good enough for me.
''There was a day I wanted to kill my self, but my family stopped me because I was frustrated as I would have to read bible the whole day in my room,'' he said.
Eboue is currently training with a semi-professional players with the bid to be fit when his ban is lifted by FIFA.